Trying to sleep sucks.

And I only make it worse on myself by ingesting such wonderful things such as coffee and Dr. Pepper.

It is now 2:00 A.M., and I'm still wide awake. I don't really feel like accomplishing a whole lot -- honestly, all I really wanna do is just sit here and listen to music until I get tired, I guess. Which kinda sucks, because there are pictures I owe people, and it'd be great to actually get something more done than just "listen to video game music and stare at the T.V. expecting something to change".

I also have a large-scale story that I want to tell ze world, but I'm having major difficulties just pressing forward and getting started with it. And I have to ask, why do I struggle so hard to just get to work?

Partly, it seems to just be that I have all of these story arcs in mind, but no fluent way to put everything on paper so that it all flows along like a perfect stream of water. A current of H20, if you will.

You know, one of these things.

(Y'know I spent about five minutes trying to find a good picture for that? That's what I'm preferring to do with my time, apparently. The mind boggles.)

But, silly analogies aside, that really is one of my major hang-ups. I have a lot of cool settings for story material, but stringing them together is proving to be, apparently, too intimidating for me. I guess I just fear putting the pieces down in the puzzle, only to find that I'm missing a few, or that I tried to shove a four-pegged jigsaw piece unceremoniously into the corner instead. As successful as I would like my story to be, I have to understand that it all can't be perfect, but damn it all, if I won't do my best to try to make it so.

The only other thing truly getting in my way (aside from the lack of other conceived character designs, antagonist or otherwise) is just the opening to the whole thing, which, I must admit, is almost 100% figured out. That part's simple enough. It's just a matter of actually sitting down for a day and doing it, really.

Oh, right. Backgrounds and perspective. That's another thing I consider myself absolutely dreadful at, that I don't want to do a huge, epic story with when the skill level is so heinously low. But, other major series have done well with some aspects that I would, after serious thought, consider to be worthy of some improvement.

I guess the only thing I should really focus on is simply getting started, and then afterward, work on improving my skill level from there. After all, one of my favorite web comics started off pretty low on the bar right at the start, and now, it brandishes proportional and colouring skills that I envy so hard.

So, who knows.

Maybe I should get started tomorrow...

Or tonight, if I don't get sleepy for another two hours...

Perhaps some scriptwriting would do.

   

Thank you, Dr. Pepper, for your wonderful caffeinated properties!

Let's be productive.